Surprising Best Day in a LONG Time

Yesterday at 0700 I showed up the Methodist Specialty and Transplant Hospital in San Antonio for my liver biopsy.  It was scary to be there for the procedure but the staff was great and it was a really nice hospital.  They took me back for blood work which was nothing, only 3 viles.  Then we were taken to the Cath Lab where I had to put on a gown and get my IV in.  My undies, bra and sweats were allowed to stay on, which was awesome but, don't worry, there were still boob shots by 3 new people.  I think I have forgotten the tally on that.  My blood pressure started out high but lowered substantially throughout the day.

After about an hour of sitting in the room, I was taken into the ultrasound room which turned into my operating room.  This is where the first 2 boob shots occurred.  I was laying on my back in the table completely covered except for a small area below my chest.  The ultrasound said this would be a good place to enter so a little "X" was marked.  When the doctor came in he made a comment about rather going through the side but he would just do it through the chest.  He numbed the skin and a bunch of layers beneath the skin.  Then he tried to jam the 8 inch needle into the liver but was blocked by cartilage.  He tried to push through but couldn't and that was not the most comfortable experience I have had.  SO, we had to ultrasound again on my right side where another "X" was placed on my ribs.  This is where the boob shot comes in because my gown needed to be lifted and my bra needed to come off that side because of where the band sits on my side.  I was pushed around so the machine would get a good view of my liver and then again when the doctor gave me some local anesthetics.  The side biopsy was much better than in the chest even though it stung more with the numbing agent at first.  I never saw the procedure since I closed my eyes but it was over relatively fast, would have been faster had they not try to go through my chest.  I was able to see the liver sample that was taken and it looked like a skinny red worm...skinnier than angel hair pasta... like a single piece of saffron.

After the procedure, I was bandaged up and taken back to recovery where my blood pressure was taken every 15 minutes as was my pulse.  I had to lay on my right side for an hour to start the clot in my liver so I didn't have any internal bleeding.  After the first hour, I was given a box lunch that doesn't really deserve any other mention...hospital food always sucks.  I was also given some meds for the pain that was in my side and shoulder.  The med was a combo of Tylenol and Vicodin.  It was awesome.  The pain left and all I was left with was a nice calm feeling.  A day that started with scared sad feelings turned out better than expected because for a few hours I could rest and not think about Lupus or why I was there in the first place. 

Recovery has been difficult emotionally because I cannot lift anything which means no lifting Jackson.  He is having a rough time because his first tooth is coming in.  Today I felt the sharp edges that have broken through his gums.  Needlesstosay, my husband is my trooper.  He has picked up so much slack and even though it has been rough, he never gives up.  I could not do this without him.  One more day of recovery to go.  It isn't too bad today.  I feel like I was punched in the ribs and my allergies are giving my lungs a rough time. 

Today's Blessings:  Friends who helped us with Jackson by making sure he safely made it to daycare so I could make it to the hospital so early.  Trusting someone else with your child is hard but they made it so easy.  I will always be grateful of them.

Focusing on the Golf Balls

 

I must be depressing to my husband.  He sent me the below link that a friend of his had posted on Facebook.  I think I have heard something like this before but like most people you read it then move on and forget.  This time I read it with a different outlook on life and I definitely think I need to focus more on the golf balls.

The golf balls are the important things:  Our efforts for everlasting happiness, our spiritual, emotional, mental and physical health, our family, our partner, our children, our friends.  Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, our life would still be full.

 

Here is a link to the story

So, for my husband (and myself), I am going to think of something everyday that I am thankful for and that makes me happy (and it won't always be my little man).

Today's Blessing:  No one ringing the doorbell after lights out on Halloween and not getting egged.

Damn You Aerosmith!

I just heard this song on the radio.  Normally I won't be posting twice in one day but I wanted to see the lyrics.  This is for Jackson!  It is so perfect for how I feel about him and it brings tears to my eyes.  He is so precious and happy.  I can't imagine life without him, or if I am honest, without me.  My biggest fear isn't death, it's leaving my loved ones behind.  (More on this later)

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Where every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing

Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes
And thank God we're together
I just want to stay with you in this moment forever
Forever and ever

I don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing

I don't want to miss one smile
I don't want to miss one kiss
I just want to be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just want to hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And just stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time Yeah yeah yeah

I don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing

I Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
Cause I'd miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing
Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you babe
And I don't want to miss a thing

Don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to fall asleep
And I don't want to miss a thing